Why do some people talk to others like they're dogs? You want me to treat everything you say as the WORD. Period. But what I say is bullshit that you don't want to listen to? Why is what I say less important than what you say? Am I not a responsible, intelligent adult? So I'm not perfect? Well who is? I do believe I'm quite pissed off.

So I didn't get a job I really wanted. I want to scream and I want to cry.

That's all I have to say about that. 

Into the New Year

How is it that some people are made to be selfish? They don't seem to care about making anyone else feel good about themselves, do things for others or generally be helpful. This mindset I do not understand. I can't function that way and I wonder why? Day after day I expect to get the same treatment that I give to others and remain astounded when that doesn't happen. Why does this still surprise me? Is it my optimism that makes me feel that one day the light will shine down and other will change? Am I mentally unbalanced? Do I fit the definition of insanity? Maybe I should start talking to myself and get it over with. 

New Years Eve

So this year I will absolutely NOT be making any resolutions. I have never stuck with a single resolution I have ever made. I know if I made one it would inevitably be cast aside and forgotten so why bother. I have never heard of any friends who have stuck with theirs either.
This year all I will say is that I vow to not make any resolutions. Maybe this I can stick with.

So this is so completely typical for me. Decide to do something for myself and then not do it because I get busy taking care of everything else. Which is exactly what I did this time. Again.
Now it's after Christmas and fixing to be a completely new year. Where exactly did the time go? I swear yesterday I was 20.
I'm hoping to be a normal person by next weekend when I will put the dreaded midnite shift behind me. Not exactly looking forward to evening shift either but I am in need of a change. 8 months on this rotation has affected me in some really negative ways. I'm fairly certain my brain function has decreased by at least 30% due to the erratic nature of my current sleeping schedule.
I only have 4 more actual nights of work after today.
I am SO ready! 

Sugar

I'm sitting here at 241 am and all I can think about is sugar. Not just any random sugar, although I'm pretty sure no sugar would be turned down at this point, but I'm specifically thinking of Pulix donuts. They are delicious on a deliciousness scale all their own. Publix should be a 24 hour store!

So I Type Too

I started out by thinking to myself. You know, no one really needs to know what is going on inside my head. But then I gave it a little more thought and decided that the thoughts in my head are no less important or fun to sort through than other blogs that I read everyday. And so I type too.

I'm hoping that this little blog will give me a chance to be creative. Seems to me that all I do anymore is take care of everyone else. I'm the resident worrier. Sometimes I feel like I might actually be feeding off stress. That somehow I am converting it to energy or maybe even storing it somewhere inside me. This is probably not a good thing. Unlike yummy wonderful things like chocolate delight...... stress does not feel real good stored in your body.

My current activity of choice during my me time is sweepstakes. I love winning things. I really don't care if it's just a $15 best buy gift card. Thar's $15 I don't have to spend at Christmas. My goal of course is to win the big sweepstakes. I trip to somewhere I would never go on if I had to pay full price. Or maybe enough money to pay off everything I owe. That would be sweet :)